Panic:1 Sara:0

Ok..I'll admit it. I had a minor moment of higher than normal stress yesterday (although Dusty would call it panic). Here is what happened:

I got home a little earlier than normal and since the horses had both the farrier and vet out in the morning I didn't want to go ride and I had plans to run today. This gave me some actual free time. I spent it straightening up the upstairs in preparation for the homestudy. It is amazing how much clutter we accumulate. I started in my bedroom and was doing really well organizing things. Then I looked over into the corner by Dusty's dresser and saw a whole pile of wires. I thought to myself "hmmm...thats probably not all that safe. we need to do something with those." Well, that started it all off. I then noticed that the alarm clock on top of the dresser had the cord running down the side where it could easily be grasped allowing the clock to crash down and crush a tiny skull. Looking over toward the bed, I saw more cords (for the lamp and a cord to charge the cell phone). We also have a space heater from winter that could easily burn a face. The box fan for Hero in the summer could chop off a finger. The dog bowl of water could be used to drown in. On and on and on I went. And that was only our bedroom!

Then Dusty happened to call and I went off about how unsafe our house is and how the kid is going to easily find 100 different ways to hurt itself. Most people get somewhere along the lines of 8 months to prepare. You can slowly accumulate things and organize the house. We have no clue how long we have. We could have 2 years or we could have 4 weeks. We could get a call saying that we matched with a birthmother due in 3 months or 3 days. We just don't know. This is one aspect about adoption that snuck up on me.

We do not need to have the house baby proofed for the home inspection on Sunday. She is looking for major concerns - the roof caving in, a swamp in the backyard, exposed live wires etc.... She will walk around and make suggestions for improvements and baby proofing. We do have some questions regarding the pets. What do we do with the litter boxes? What about the water bowls?

Since we are moving in a little over a year and are already pushing the average time frame, we don't want to sink a lot of money and effort into babyproofing a house we have a good chance of not bringing a baby home to. On the other hand, it needs to be ready if that call does come. AHHHHH!!!
Dusty was able to talk me from the precipice of insanity by reminding me that we still have so much paperwork to get through and classes to take and autobiographies to write that we have time to go through the house and make it right. Deep breath. Big deep breath.